"Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge." -Eckhart Tolle

One might think that choosing to be healthy is an obviously positive change in someone’s life. But for me, that wasn’t the case. My eating disorder WAS my life for more than half of the time I’d been on this earth. Fighting to WANT to give it up was way more than half the battle. I wanted to recover for my family but I didn’t want to recover for me for the longest time. Still, I pressed on and worked as hard as I could at the UCSD Eating Disorders Center to learn how to cope healthily with life. After months and months at my program and also learning to turn to my faith for strength, I finally wanted to change for ME, and that space in my life began to open up. I was trying to be the best version of me FOR me. Little did I know that only 3 days after discharging from my program, I would meet the love of my life.

A picture I took on our first day together, February 20, 2014.

and one of our early dates.